Small Money No Money

The frustration was building inside me like a pressure cooker about to explode. Each day, I found myself trying to navigate through the treacherous waters of the entertainment industry without the guidance of Storm. My time at Purfek Storm Group had taught me a lot, but it also served as a painful reminder of all the opportunities I’d squandered because of my alcohol abuse. I couldn’t help but feel the weight of my past mistakes, heavy and unforgiving, as I continued to struggle in the present. Brenna and I were waiting with bated breath to find out whether we were having a boy or girl, and with each passing day, the weight of becoming a father grew heavier. The anticipation gnawed at me, and I couldn’t help but wonder if I could truly be the man my child needed me to be. I knew I had to change, and I knew I had to do it fast. But change wasn’t easy, especially when you’re broke. Work had been slow, and the money wasn’t coming in as it should. I found myself grappling with either having small money or no money at all. My addiction to alcohol had left me with nothing, and I struggled to make ends meet with the small jobs I could find. But they were never enough to make a significant difference in my life. I stared at my phone with a heavy heart, my thumb hovering over the app that held the bitter truth about my financial situation. I hesitated for a moment before finally tapping on the screen. My heart sank as the numbers appeared before me—my bank account balance was pitifully low, barely enough to cover the necessities. I couldn’t shake the memories of all the times I’d squandered my money on alcohol, my addiction consuming everything I had. The late nights spent drowning my sorrows in a sea of booze, the ever-present buzz that clouded my mind, and the regrets that plagued me in the sober light of day. It all seemed so pointless now. But the shadow of my alcoholism loomed large over me, threatening to drag me down with every step I took forward. I knew I had to keep pushing, to keep fighting, for the sake of my wife and the child we were expecting, but the lows were low, and I’d often wonder if my presence on this earth was a gift or a curse.