Anxiety at its peak, my mind was racing and my heart was pounding. It all started on Sunday when I confirmed a celebrity booking for the Bud and Roach Show, Jaleel White. I fawned over the back-and-forth interaction with management, negotiating his appearance. The excitement was short-lived as I found myself suffering from a panic attack while drinking Hennessy and watching Entourage. The panic attack was so intense that I ended up in the hospital. It was terrifying being trapped in my own mind, not knowing what was happening to me. I spent all of Monday undergoing a series of heart tests, still reeling from the traumatic experience of the previous day. The hospital was a dreary place, and I knew I needed to get out. I discharged myself and ran home as fast as I could to set up the broadcast for the Bud and Roach Show. I knew I couldn’t miss this opportunity, especially with our celebrity guest. I was determined to make it happen. The night went moderately smoothly, and although Zo and I nearly fumbled by not accepting Jaleel’s first call, the Bud and Roach Show was a success. Jaleel White was an incredible guest, and the show was one of our best yet. I was proud of what we had accomplished, and it was a testament to the hard work that we had put in. Tuesday finally arrived, and it was the day of the LIVE! Residency. I knew I couldn’t let my anxiety get the best of me, so I took a deep breath and went out there. Performing my acoustic original “I Seen It Coming”, I felt a sense of relief. I was in my element, and the music took over. It was a reminder that I am more than my anxiety, and that I can push through it.
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