Connection (Original)

After releasing and un-releasing a subpar video for “Other Side,” I couldn’t help but feel a sense of defeat. I laid low for a few weeks in January, trying to collect my thoughts and regroup. I recognized that I was being impatient with myself, expecting perfection when I was still on the path to self-improvement. As I spent my days browsing the BeatStars Marketplace, I sought inspiration in new places, new sounds, and new experiences. During the years I spent intoxicated in the studio room of my in-law’s apartment, I was no stranger to writing rap bars. I had always been captivated by the art of Hip Hop, and my stint at Shade45 during my time with Purfek Storm Group only fueled my passion. The raps I wrote in my darkest days were often reflections of my inner turmoil, and I found that they served as painful reminders of the things I wanted to leave behind. I wanted to create something that would bring me happiness and remind me of the good things in life. My love for marijuana had always been a positive force, never leading to the same regrets and consequences that alcohol had. So, I decided to channel that energy into a new song. I came across a dope instrumental by producer Kaz The God, and it sparked something within me. The beat had this infectious energy that I couldn’t resist. As I began writing lyrics for what would eventually become “Connection (Light It Up),” I found myself feeling rejuvenated, excited, and more optimistic than I had been in a long time. This fun, lighthearted record was a breath of fresh air. It reminded me that not all of my music had to be heavy and haunting and that I was capable of creating something uplifting, even in the midst of my battle with alcoholism and depression. As I laid down the verses, I found myself smiling, laughing, and enjoying the process like never before.