Mirror The Codes

Mirror The Codes

Throughout this process of enlightenment, I found myself gravitating toward the healing power of 395Hz, Nicola Tesla’s 3-6-9 code. It’s a simple and relaxing frequency that allows me to tap into parts of my mind that are tucked away most days, and it was essential in my writing process. Lately,…

Practice The Preach

Practice The Preach

You have to let God work. You can’t force life to happen, and when you try to, you find yourself screaming inside of empty rooms. Nobody ever imagines their lives will turn out the way they did, regardless of how much planning and development goes into any one individual. There’s…

Show Me How To Live

Show Me How To Live

I had mastered the art of bouncing back. That skill was developed throughout my years of hitting the bottom. Now, I’m mastering the art of not having to bounce back at all. The pace in which I’ve been able to not only control my emotional reactions to the situations in…

I Already Won

I Already Won

It feels tremendous, if I’m being frank. Plugging back into the game this morning, I felt a sense of thrill in being trapped in my body. This is me. I am. Knowing this leaves me feeling boundless. There’s a huge contrast I see when I see the lives of other…

Stranger Things

Stranger Things

Reaching this juncture in my life might not appear extraordinary to those who have closely followed my journey. To those who share my unwavering self-belief, stranger accomplishments have been witnessed. Yet, the present unfolding of events is not an anomaly; rather, it is the culmination of every choice I have…

Weekend At Piff’s

Weekend At Piff’s

It was unexpected to say the least. In the vast tapestry of life, where some plans were seamlessly executed, others crumbled and disintegrated. Amidst this tumultuous dance of aspirations and setbacks, I found myself face to face with the unyielding force of time. A force that holds everyone captive, urging…

He Opened The Door

He Opened The Door

You can’t rush God. Everything happens on His time, as was proven yesterday during a meeting that seemed years in the making. After spending my morning shopping in the boroughs, I received a text from a friend and colleague: an invitation to the studio space that would become the new…

Faces Vs Heels

Faces Vs Heels

Lately, I’ve found myself engrossed in discussions about the intriguing dynamics of the entertainment world, specifically how they have a pendulum effect on my mood. This rollercoaster ride has led me to contemplate the multifaceted roles played by individuals in the industry. On one hand, there’s Alex Montanez, an author,…

Constants and Variables

Constants and Variables

Waking up early this morning, I laid in bed thinking about my life. I’ve come to the realization that there are two types of situations that act as the fork in the road of my attention: the constants and the variables. Variables, more often than not, are the construct of…

I’ma Do What It Takes

I’ma Do What It Takes

Acceptance is a beautiful thing. The way I feel right now, with the hurricane of emotions that I’ve recently experienced, is unprecedented. The veil has been lifted, and all I see in front of me is opportunity. Opportunity to do what I’ve been destined to do since birth, and change…

Self-Centered Narcissist

Self-Centered Narcissist

I’ll never be sure as to whether or not this was all intentional. It’s hard to say, especially when you feel as though you’ve been guided by something your entire life. But I’ve come to an understanding that has left me feeling at total peace with myself. I am, in…

An Avalanche Of Bullshit

An Avalanche Of Bullshit

I understand how fortunate I am. Having done all of this, creating my life story into a blog, getting sober and facing all of the demons that have haunted me my entire existence, it allowed me to see the truth about my life and all of the decisions I’ve made….

Stepping Carefully

Stepping Carefully

The water dripping from the ceiling seemed to mock me. Arriving at work extra early today, I sat in the dark warehouse, deep in thought over my morning commute. The toilets flushing above me result in a consistent flow of droplets from the pipes hanging near the ceiling, but even…

The Time Is Now

The Time Is Now

The studio lights remained dim throughout the night, creating a somber atmosphere that matched my mood. The migraine I was experiencing was due to a mixture of the loud music that had set the soundtrack for my day, and the emotions I had confronted because of it. It was not the day…

Ain’t No Tellin’

Ain’t No Tellin’

Last night, a piece of me perished that I can never reclaim. This piece of me, for good or ill, had seen it all until the final blow, as the faint glimmer that remained vanished when the cover had snapped shut, and the earth began to bury me. My soul…

40 Days and 40 Nights

40 Days and 40 Nights

Alenna, I thought I had said goodbye to you in terms of writing for this year, but life has a way of surprising us. I have many talents, but none of them can fully capture the transformation that is happening within me; still, I will do my best to share…

Dear Alenna

Dear Alenna

Baby, I know you are going to grow up and read all of this one day. Believe me, I will make sure that this stays online long enough for you to be able to experience and enjoy, even long after I’m gone. I didn’t know much about my dad. I…

The Art Of Moving On

The Art Of Moving On

I’m done. Done with pleasing others. Done with proving myself. Done. The stress that has weighed me down for weeks has finally pushed me over the edge, and as time goes by, I see things more clearly. I see things as they really are, not as my imagination paints them….