I had grown to believe that I was alone on this journey. Having embraced the full scope of my solitude, I found solace in introspection, and took every opportunity available to me to look inward. For better or worse, that mentality had become my anchor, which also took me to…
There is a constant hum inside of my head. The ringing effects of Nicola Tesla’s 369 code leave me in a constant state of introspection, and I sometimes feel as though I’m standing on the edge of a cliff, inches away from an eternal abyss. I’m far removed from the…
People change. That’s a fact of life that I’ve come to accept. But the greatest change I’ve yet to see is the one that happened within myself. There is a daunting feeling associated with the new reality that I’m currently living in. Through the exchanges I’ve had with others, I’ve…
Thanksgiving came and went, and I could hardly remember how long it’s been since this internal conversation began. It feels as though every day, new layers to this dialogue emerge, and I’ve sunk deeper and deeper into my pit of solitude. The event itself was beautiful, and on the surface,…
There’s a level of anxiety I experience at the thought of any social setting. Once upon a time, alcohol was my crutch, and more often than not, it allowed me to navigate any crowd with ease. It broke me out of the shell that my natural state puts me in,…
For someone to have done what I have done with my life, it would shock some to know that I value my privacy very much. There are things that I share, and things that I don’t share, and that’s my right. But with everything in my life happening at once,…
Things are changing quickly. Internally, I’m just in a different space. I find my body is healing from the decades of abuse I’ve put it through, and I can feel my spirit being cleansed in ways I have never felt before. My boundaries have kept me safe from the world…
Only hindsight will reveal to you the method of my madness. With my spirit high above the city, I watch as millions of people exhaust themselves, each in a hamster wheel of their own creation. I’ve always had a different mindset, and this idea of trading time for money seemed…
There was a time in my life when all seemed lost. The world had seemed to fall on my head once again, and my ego caused an internal depression; a conflict between understanding the value of patience, and having to fight to obtain it. The fear that I had experienced…
I’ve been reading a lot lately. Typically, I would use my commute as a time for meditation, or distraction. With my cell phone always in hand, I was no stranger to doom scrolling. But recently, I found myself within the New York City subway system, deeply engaged in a copy…
